Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Accountability

Well, Thanksgiving was wonderful.  I have no pictures to share, unfortunately, as my parents don't really like photos.  Shocking, I know.  But, while I am thankful to have had the time with them, I have a different kind of Thanksgiving post to write.  We will call it a "pre" New Year's resolution.  Better known as the "post" Thanksgiving resolution.  And like most women, it involves losing weight.

My weight has always been a struggle for me.  Well, at least in my mind.  I was always thin in high school.  I never thought I was, but looking back, I was at a really healthy weight.  I was 5'4" (still am) and about 120 lbs.  I always thought I was the fat girl, but what I wouldn't give to be at that weight today.

Before Joel deployed, I promised myself that I would lose some weight.  And I did.  In six months, I lost 17 pounds.  I felt great, bought a cute new wardrobe, and was finally content looking at that girl in the mirror.

That's me about to run a race in July.  And yes, it was a costume run.
Now, post Thanksgiving, I realized that I have gained back ten pounds in just a few short months.  I feel disgusting, I can barely fit into my new wardrobe, and all of my pants are nearly unbearable to wear because I tossed all of my fat pants in the trash.  But, no more.  Starting today, I am making myself accountable.  Today is day one.  I did 20 minutes of kettlebells, and can't believe the step back that I have taken.  Below, if you are brave enough to look, you will see my "before" pictures, as I like to call them.  I will lose this weight again.  For good.  I will be a more active person and I will eat better.  Because I refuse to look like this much longer.  I just need to believe that I am not meant to be the fat girl.  Because for most of my life, that is who I have seen in the mirror.  And I need to make sure that "she" doesn't define me.  I control my destiny.

Yes, I have a bra on.  It just happens to be the same color as my top.

My last before pic.  Gross.
Any tips, hints, or suggestions are recommended.  I want to make this weight loss sustainable.  No more fad diets for me.  I know the only was to keep the weight off is to make a lifestyle change.  I want to be a fitter, happier, and yes, thinner me.

6 comments:

Jen said...

I think you look great but if you do want to lose weight try the myfitnesspal app. I have used that for the last 7 months and have lost 20 pounds and kept it off. I just monitor my calories. I don't deprive myself of anything I just adjust how much of it I eat. :)

Katiellirb said...

You can do it!! I know you can! I applaude your self discovery and more, your willingness to change and not complain. I know this sounds small but the best tip I can give is to drink 2 cups (16 oz) of water in the morning when are getting ready for work. I find it works wonders in getting my body on schedule and curbs hunger.

SaraSherrell.com said...

Visiting from Walkabout Wesnesday. Good luck on your weight loss journey. Just make changes slowly enough to make them comfortable. If you rush into a lifestyle change, it likely won't stick. Which is why my OCD weight loss kicks are never long term...

Enjoying the Epiphany said...

I love your costume for your run! I found you through the blog hop and am your newest follower. I was kinda maybe hopin' that you'd follow me back ;-) !

Hugs,
Sarah
www.enjoyingtheepiphany.com

Jamie said...

You can do it! Just keep moving- that is the key. Good luck!

The Blatchford Family said...

I second the myfitnesspal recommendation. It allows you to track calories & exercise. If you work out, you get to eat more! Good motivation each day. ;)