When Joel was deployed, I rocked in the accomplishment department. I lost a ton of weight, ate healthier, got in better shape, stayed on top of my school assignments, hung out with friends, and even found time to volunteer and be a good doggy momma. Wanna know what I have accomplished since Joel has returned?
Nothing.
That's right. I am totally behind on school stuff, have gained back almost half of the weight I lost, and have virtually sucked at running and eating better. I have neglected my house, the pups (well, not completely, but they have been missing the lovins that they are used to), and any semblance of progress that I made. Why is this? How can I totally rock it on my own, but slide completely back downhill once my husband returned. Am I not taking care of myself because I am putting his needs before my own, or have I just become lazy? My guess is the latter. I need to get back to taking care of myself, and finding the motivation to do so. I guess what I really need to do is find some balance.
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I'm the same way! I think my husband influences my moods WAAAAY too much. If he's not up and at 'em and ready to hit the ground running, then I hit lazy mode. If you figure out a way to shake that feeling, let me know!
I'm kind of wondering what's going to happen to whatever balance I have going on when my husband comes back. It's a tricky time. I'm mostly just so mad that I've had to spend all this time by myself (not at him, obviously, just annoyed in general).
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