Monday, September 24, 2012

I suck!

When Joel was deployed, I rocked in the accomplishment department.  I lost a ton of weight, ate healthier, got in better shape, stayed on top of my school assignments, hung out with friends, and even found time to volunteer and be a good doggy momma.  Wanna know what I have accomplished since Joel has returned?

Nothing.

That's right.  I am totally behind on school stuff, have gained back almost half of the weight I lost, and have virtually sucked at running and eating better.  I have neglected my house, the pups (well, not completely, but they have been missing the lovins that they are used to), and any semblance of progress that I made.  Why is this?  How can I totally rock it on my own, but slide completely back downhill once my husband returned.  Am I not taking care of myself because I am putting his needs before my own, or have I just become lazy?  My guess is the latter.  I need to get back to taking care of myself, and finding the motivation to do so.  I guess what I really need to do is find some balance.

2 comments:

Ech and Will said...

I'm the same way! I think my husband influences my moods WAAAAY too much. If he's not up and at 'em and ready to hit the ground running, then I hit lazy mode. If you figure out a way to shake that feeling, let me know!

Kristin said...

I'm kind of wondering what's going to happen to whatever balance I have going on when my husband comes back. It's a tricky time. I'm mostly just so mad that I've had to spend all this time by myself (not at him, obviously, just annoyed in general).